Sucks feeling...

After so many years, now only that i accepted that a lot of things whether is good or bad is not control by ourself even we had put an effort on it...it can said that most of the things are determine by fate. Sometimes i really don't know what to do to change a people's thinking. Maybe im wrong from the start.
All becoz of jealousy and rabidity in my heart. i should not put my self-thinking on others. it only will make the things more complicated if didn't reach the same ground. Perhaps i should change myself and let nature take its course...Is hard...When i got this feeling everytime, there is an intention come across my mind; Runaway...
Till now, is still the same...